so what makes a man think it's okay to stay out til 4am with his female coworker and her friends?

he says he just wants to socialize and have a beer. well, they stop selling beer at 2am, so why 4am? i think 3 hrs is plenty of socialization.

is this really an unfair expectation?

I just feel.... weird.

Not myself lately.

I think stress has devoured all of my feelings, quickly.

I feel nauseous so I guess that's my cue for sleep.

I was actually planning on creating an entire real entry, but then decided not to... As I'm just not feeling right tonight... Or last night either.

 im so tired of inconsiderate people.

we have taken a liking to salmon sandwiches in my house instead of tuna. it has a way better taste. its a little pricier, BUT we dont have to buy it because i get it free with WIC.

well albertsons didn't have chicken of the sea pink salmon, but they had bumble bee pink salmon in a taller can. i should have known.

i opened it tonight to make sandwiches and it had tons of bones and skin in it. which is fine for fried patties. but we were making sandwiches.

lets just say it didnt really get eaten. its way too fishy.

yick.

i work in one of the most dysfunctional offices.

really. i'm not just saying this because i dislike my job. i'm saying this because it's true.

for one, we do everything different than industry standard but we still try to claim it's industry standard. like our contract system. it's standard to have a 3 yr agreement with your monitoring company in our field, BUT our company NEVER enforces the contracts (or actually, we randomly enforce them... meaning, some customers are held accountable, and others aren't).

for two, i am in charge of collections, but i have no control. i want to disconnect an account for non-payment? nope, not gonna happen. my boss will override any decision i make, and tell me to spend countless gruelling hours calling these shit heads for payment. over the last year we haven't received a payment from some customers? oh well. continue calling for another year. we don't want to lose our delusional idea of "potential" customers!

for three, theres 2 employees, really. me and the scheduling/billing girl (she gets title--assistant office manager). the boss/president is here, but i really only feel shes here to enforce our duties to make sure we're not burning the building down and chanting demonic codes for lunacy. she just sits on facebook and talks about her husband, or her court case.

for four, the other employee has been out for a week, and i have been looking through her endless stacks of papers. these aren't meaningless papers, either. and i've looked through the calendar and she hasn't been billing regularly since SEPTEMBER. um, so where do you think your paycheck comes from? my collection ass? seriously. BILL BILL BILL. i have spent my last 2 days here by myself, as everyone is sick, billing away. i've billed at least 5k in jobs. hopefully we get paid but the standard is, if you wait longer than a week to bill for completed services, your chances of getting paid get slimmer and slimmer by the minute.

oh, and how i really found this out is the co only had $300 in the bank this morning when i came in, so i knew something was wrong....

i also have tons of disconnection notices from vendors--our cell phone co, our telephone co, TAX LICENSING?!?!, all of which are saying we haven't been paying.

is anyone in here paying attention and really give a shit about their job except for ME??????

ah well. whatever. i guess i get more hours now, since it seems im the only one prioritizing my work, and doing what is really important: GETTING OUR MONEY OUT OF THESE SCUM. seriously. i HATE customers who don't pay their fucking bills--and these people are all basically MILLIONAIRES, they can afford to pay $25 a month. greed.

tomorrow's the big day! i'm getting married!!

heres where we are spending our "honeymoon" weekend lol
http://www.tapatiocliffshilton.com/

Yaay!!

I am so tired of people getting me sick.

Im stuck here at work and I have sweat dripping down my back. I feel like absolute crap. I have some kind of cold... and I hate summer colds, they are always the worst kind.

I think I'm going to go home now, miss out on my $10 by going home an hr and a half early.
But I think its worth it with how I am feeling today.

:(

This is what I'm dealing with tonight:

( Screamer )